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Tuesday, May 19, 2026

Gazing back to my university life

Two incidents during my university life have shaped me in ways I only came to fully understand much later. Unknowingly, unconsciously, and almost without notice, my thinking, my values, and even the way I now look at education and life were gradually influenced during my MPhil journey. At the time, these were simply classroom conversations. Nothing dramatic, nothing extraordinary on the surface. Yet over the years, they have grown into quiet guiding principles that continue to shape how I think, teach, and live.

The first incident was centered around a question on plagiarism. In one of our classes, a colleague asked something many of us had silently wondered but never openly voiced: “Can any professor or system really know if I have plagiarized content?” For a moment, the room became still. It felt like the question had touched a sensitive but very real layer of academic life.

Our professor responded in a very calm, almost reflective tone. He acknowledged that modern systems and experienced teachers can detect plagiarism to a large extent. However, he also made it clear that absolute detection is never fully possible. Then he paused and gently redirected the entire conversation away from technology and surveillance toward something deeper. He said, “The real issue is not detection; the real issue is ethics.”

That one shift changed the direction of the discussion entirely. He explained that universities are not simply built to catch mistakes or punish wrongdoing. Their deeper responsibility is to shape ethical human beings. Plagiarism, he said, is not just a technical act of copying text; it reflects something far more personal — honesty, integrity, self-discipline, and the kind of person we choose to become when no one is watching.

He then added a line that stayed with me long after the class ended: “Unless a person is unethical from within, no one may even notice anything outside.” That statement carried a quiet but uncomfortable truth. It was no longer about fear of being caught; it was about the internal compass that guides our actions even when there are no external checks.

He further expanded the idea into a long-term perspective that most of us had never seriously considered at that stage of life. He said, “Today, you may think of assignments and research as simple requirements to complete your degree. But life is unpredictable. One day, you may become a Vice Chancellor, a senior academic, a researcher, or someone whose work is read and reviewed by others at a very high level.” He paused and continued, “At that time, people may go back and examine the work you produced as a student.” They might raise a question about your integrity. Now, it is a minor act for you, but in the future, that could be the big blow to your face! 

That sentence created a silence in the room that felt different from before. It carried weight. He gently reminded us that even small, unethical choices made in academic life do not simply disappear; they travel with us into the future. A moment of carelessness today can become a lasting question mark on credibility tomorrow. His final message in that discussion was simple, but it felt complete: learn to be ethical in every step of life. That day, plagiarism stopped being a rule in my mind and became a reflection of character.


The second incident took the conversation beyond ethics and into something even more foundational — the meaning of education itself. In another class, our professor spoke with unusual honesty, without trying to soften his words or align them with common expectations.

He began by saying, “You are entering the world of knowledge and philosophy. If you are expecting that simply earning a degree from here will guarantee economic prosperity, that assumption may not always hold true.” It was a statement that immediately challenged the unspoken belief many of us carried into higher education — that education is primarily a pathway to financial security.

He continued in a very grounded tone, “It is not guaranteed that you will live a lavish or comfortable life after graduating. Some of you may achieve material success, but that could come through many different factors, not just the degree itself.” Then he added something that shifted the atmosphere of the room: “But one thing is almost certain — you will gain ownership of your own life.”

He explained this idea further. According to him, true education gradually builds inner independence. It gives a person the ability to think, to question, and to resist being easily controlled or exploited. “No one will easily rule over you, and you will not accept injustice silently,” he said. Even if life becomes difficult, an educated mind develops a kind of internal strength — not necessarily to avoid suffering, but to refuse meaninglessness in suffering.

He then described education as a journey into a different kind of world. “The pursuit of knowledge and freedom introduces you to another realm,” he said. “You may not always have material abundance, but you will have your own world — your thoughts, your values, your way of seeing life.” That idea felt almost philosophical, yet deeply practical at the same time.

He further reflected that if someone is entering education only for quick financial returns, there may be faster and more direct paths elsewhere. But if a person invests time and energy in knowledge, reflection, and wisdom, something deeper begins to unfold. Priorities slowly change. Definitions of success begin to shift. What once felt important may no longer feel central. And what once seemed invisible may become essential.

Looking back now, I realize these two incidents were never just classroom interactions. They were quite turning points disguised as ordinary lectures. One anchored me in the importance of integrity — what we do when no one is watching. The other expanded my understanding of education — what we become beyond material measures of success.

Together, they continue to influence not only how I think about teaching and learning, but also how I understand responsibility, freedom, and the long journey of becoming a human being.


मेरो विश्वविद्यालय जीवनका दुई वटा घटनाहरूले मलाई यस्तो रूपमा आकार दिएका छन्, जसको गहिराइ मैले धेरै पछि मात्र बुझ्न थालेँ। अनजानमै, अचेतन रूपमा र लगभग नदेखिने गरी, मेरो सोच, मूल्य र जीवन हेर्ने दृष्टिकोण MPhil अध्ययनका क्रममा बिस्तारै परिवर्तन हुँदै गएको रहेछ। त्यतिबेला ती केवल साधारण कक्षागत छलफलजस्ता लाग्थे। कुनै ठूलो घटना जस्तो होइन, कुनै नाटकीय क्षण जस्तो पनि होइन। तर समयसँगै ती नै मेरो सोच, शिक्षण शैली र जीवन दृष्टिकोणलाई दिशा दिने मौन आधारहरू बने।

पहिलो घटना plagiarism सम्बन्धी प्रश्नसँग जोडिएको थियो। एक दिन कक्षामा मेरा एक सहकर्मीले यस्तो प्रश्न सोधे, जुन हामीमध्ये धेरैको मनमा थियो तर खुलेर बोलिएको थिएन: “के कुनै professor वा system ले मैले plagiarism गरेको छु कि छैन भनेर साँच्चै थाहा पाउन सक्छ?” केही क्षणका लागि कक्षा शान्त भयो। यस्तो लाग्यो, प्रश्नले सबैको मनमा लुकेको एउटा असहज सत्यलाई छोएको छ।

Professor ले धेरै शान्त र गम्भीर तरिकाले उत्तर दिनुभयो। उहाँले स्वीकार गर्नुभयो कि अहिलेका प्रणाली र अनुभवी शिक्षकहरूले plagiarism धेरै हदसम्म पत्ता लगाउन सक्छन्। तर उहाँले यो पनि स्पष्ट पार्नुभयो कि पूर्ण रूपमा सबै कुरा पत्ता लगाउन सम्भव हुँदैन। त्यसपछि उहाँले बिस्तारै कुराको दिशा प्रविधि र निगरानीबाट हटाएर गहिरो विषयतर्फ मोड्नुभयो। उहाँले भन्नुभयो, “वास्तविक कुरा detection होइन, वास्तविक कुरा ethics हो।”

यो एक वाक्यले नै सम्पूर्ण छलफलको अर्थ परिवर्तन गरिदियो। उहाँले भन्नुभयो कि विश्वविद्यालयहरू केवल गल्ती समात्ने वा सजाय दिने संस्था मात्र होइनन्। तिनीहरूको गहिरो उद्देश्य नै नैतिक मानिस निर्माण गर्नु हो। उहाँका अनुसार plagiarism केवल शब्द चोर्ने प्राविधिक कुरा मात्र होइन, यो इमानदारी, आत्मअनुशासन र व्यक्ति भित्रको चरित्रसँग जोडिएको कुरा हो — विशेष गरी जब कसैले नहेरेको बेला हामी कस्तो निर्णय गर्छौं भन्ने कुरा।

उहाँले एउटा यस्तो वाक्य भन्नुभयो, जुन आज पनि स्पष्ट रूपमा सम्झन्छु: “जब मानिस आफैं भित्रबाट unethical हुन्छ, बाहिरबाट धेरै कुरा थाहा नहुन पनि सक्छ।” यो भनाइले डर होइन, आत्मचिन्तन जन्मायो। अब plagiarism बाहिरबाट पकडिने कुरा मात्र रहेन, यो त आफूभित्रको नैतिक दिशासँग जोडिएको विषय बन्यो।

त्यसपछि उहाँले भविष्यतर्फ संकेत गर्दै अझ गहिरो कुरा भन्नुभयो। उहाँले भन्नुभयो, “आज तिमीहरूलाई assignment र research केवल degree पूरा गर्ने कामजस्तो लागिरहेको होला। तर जीवन अनिश्चित छ। भोलि तिमीहरू Vice Chancellor, वरिष्ठ researcher वा प्रतिष्ठित academic व्यक्ति बन्न सक्छौ।” उहाँले केही क्षण रोकिएर भन्नुभयो, “त्यस बेला मानिसहरूले तिमीहरूले विद्यार्थी जीवनमा लेखेका कामहरू फेरि खोजेर हेर्न सक्छन्।”

यो कुरा सुन्दा कक्षामा फरक प्रकारको मौनता छायो। उहाँले सम्झाउनुभयो कि आज गरिएका साना unethical निर्णयहरू हराउँदैनन्, ती भविष्यमा हाम्रो पहिचानसँगै जोडिएर आउन सक्छन्। एक सानो लापरवाही पनि भविष्यमा ठूलो प्रश्न बन्न सक्छ। अन्त्यमा उहाँको सन्देश सरल तर अत्यन्त गहिरो थियो — जीवनको हरेक कदममा ethical बन्न सिक। त्यस दिन plagiarism नियम होइन, चरित्रको ऐना जस्तो बन्यो।

दोस्रो घटना शिक्षाको अर्थ र उद्देश्यसँग सम्बन्धित थियो, जसले हामीलाई अझ गहिरो तहमा सोच्न बाध्य बनायो। अर्को कक्षामा professor ले कुनै नाटक बिना, कुनै सजावट बिना अत्यन्त स्पष्ट रूपमा भन्नुभयो, “तिमीहरू ज्ञान र दर्शनको संसारमा प्रवेश गर्दैछौ। यदि यहाँबाट degree लिँदा नै आर्थिक समृद्धि पक्का हुन्छ भन्ने सोचिरहेका छौ भने, त्यो सधैं सत्य नहुन सक्छ।”

उहाँका यी शब्दहरूले हाम्रो सामान्य अपेक्षालाई नै चुनौती दिए। हामीमध्ये धेरैले शिक्षा भनेको राम्रो जागिर र आर्थिक सुरक्षित भविष्यको बाटो हो भन्ने बुझाइ राखेका थियौँ। तर उहाँले त्यो धारणा सजिलै स्वीकार गर्नुभएन।

उहाँले भन्नुभयो, “यहाँबाट degree लिएपछि विलासी वा सहज जीवन पाउनु नै पर्छ भन्ने कुनै ग्यारेन्टी छैन। कसैलाई आर्थिक सफलता मिल्न सक्छ, तर त्यो केवल degree को कारणले मात्र होइन, धेरै अन्य कारणहरूले पनि हुन्छ।” त्यसपछि उहाँले एउटा यस्तो वाक्य भन्नुभयो जसले कक्षाको वातावरण नै बदलिदियो: “तर एउटा कुरा लगभग निश्चित छ — तिमीहरूले आफ्नै जीवनको मालिक बन्नेछौ।”

उहाँले यो कुरा विस्तार गर्दै भन्नुभयो कि साँचो शिक्षा भनेको बिस्तारै मानिसलाई भित्री रूपमा स्वतन्त्र बनाउने प्रक्रिया हो। यसले सोच्ने क्षमता, प्रश्न गर्ने बानी र अन्यायलाई सजिलै स्वीकार नगर्ने साहस विकास गर्छ। उहाँका अनुसार, शिक्षित मानिसले दुःख वा कठिनाइ सहन सक्छ, तर अन्यायलाई चुपचाप स्वीकार गर्दैन।

उहाँले भन्नुभयो, “ज्ञान र स्वतन्त्रताको खोजीले तिमीहरूलाई जीवनको अर्को संसारमा पुर्‍याउँछ। त्यहाँ सधैं भौतिक सम्पत्ति नहुन सक्छ, तर तिमीहरूसँग आफ्नै संसार हुनेछ — आफ्ना सोच, आफ्ना मूल्य र आफ्नै दृष्टिकोण।” यो कुरा सुन्दा हामीले शिक्षा केवल करियरको बाटो मात्र होइन, जीवन बुझ्ने प्रक्रिया पनि रहेछ भन्ने अनुभूति गर्न थाल्यौँ।

उहाँले थप भन्नुभयो कि यदि कसैको लक्ष्य केवल छिटो आर्थिक लाभ मात्र हो भने, त्यसका लागि अन्य क्षेत्रहरू पनि हुन सक्छन्। तर यदि समय र ऊर्जा ज्ञान, चिन्तन र बुद्धिको खोजीमा लगाइयो भने, मानिस बिस्तारै एउटा फरक आयाममा प्रवेश गर्छ। त्यसपछि उसको प्राथमिकता बदलिन्छ, सफलताको परिभाषा बदलिन्छ, र जीवन हेर्ने दृष्टिकोण नै रूपान्तरण हुन्छ।

अब फर्किएर हेर्दा, यी दुई घटनाहरू केवल कक्षागत अनुभव मात्र थिएनन्। ती शान्त तर शक्तिशाली मोडहरू थिए, जसले मेरो सोचको दिशा बदलिदिए। पहिलो घटनाले मलाई इमानदारीको अर्थ सिकायो — जब कसैले नहेरेको हुन्छ, त्यतिबेला हामी को हुन्छौँ भन्ने कुरा। दोस्रो घटनाले शिक्षाको गहिरो अर्थ बुझायो — भौतिक सफलताभन्दा परको स्वतन्त्रता र चेतनाको संसार।

यी दुई अनुभवहरूले आज पनि मेरो सोच, शिक्षण र जीवन बुझाइलाई निरन्तर रूपमा आकार दिइरहेका छन्।




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